John 12:24 and more:)

24 Most certainly I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains by itself alone. But if it dies, it bears much fruit. 25 He who loves his life will lose it. He who hates his life in this world will keep it to eternal life. 26 If anyone serves me, let him follow me. Where I am, there will my servant also be. If anyone serves me, the Father will honor him.

If you know me you perhaps think this pertains to TEC (Teens Encounter Christ) the best retreat program I had the honor of directing for several years:) but I just heard Joyce talking about this passage and it was just the tip of the iceberg of my journey.

I tell you unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains by it self alone:
when I was on my journey , doing what God had anointed me to do I was blessed truly blessed, I would never change the experience, the lessons and the friends I made along the journey changed my life. but as the journey cames to an end it is like the wheat falling into the earth and dying a sad process but necessary.

it remains by itself alone, but if it dies, it bears much fruit
being left behind on my journey trying to find a new direction it was as if I was alone, abandoned. a way of dying to self, a new direction which seems uncertain and uncomfortable, but with change come discomfort.
the fruit has begun to ripen and the journey seems to have found purpose just when I had given up on looking for the way.

25 He who loves his life will lose it. He who hates his life in this world will keep it to eternal life.

the fact that change makes us uncomfortable makes perfect sense when we read this part.



27 "Now my soul is troubled. What shall I say?'Father, save me from this time





it seems like yesterday I was quoting this passage:) and today I rejoice because the journey is beautiful and the steps to get there I would never change, it has made me the stronger, smarter,faithful and most of all happy to find a new anointing:)